An astonishing existence
which I wanted to have (I didn't know)
a marvellous presence
which took me to paradise
She wanted to have me
(how could I know?)
She wanted to be us
(I didn't let her try)
So many years of turmoil in my soul
regretting the untold
mixing hate, sorrow and love
gathering things to recover from
She wanted to have me
(what would have been of me?)
She wanted to be us
(How deep would have the bullet laid?)
So many years
until I could finally understand
it was meant to be like this
it wasn't meant to be us
Now I know
all the yearning is gone for good
Now I know
untaken decisions are our decisions too
